Today, Yesterday, The day before that and I'm sure tomorrow, I'm in this unfamiliar place. Smiling and needing to see this unfamiliar face... {That is somehow becoming so familiar}
Life sets you up a lot and this time I feel the set up is grand, one of those times that I really have no one to get the answers from or hold my hand... and I don't think I want them to.
This decision... This choice... This next move is one I need, its my chance Again to say that this is Me. I pride myself on not conforming, never fitting into a box, or accepting society's labels.
But its totally different when I feel someone else is turning the table. The rush I feel compares to that of Russian Roulette, its come my way and I get that one second to react.
(I have to stop myself and take a breath). Going through... To have gone through so much pain and still have all this I don't know... "whatever you make me feel" left. ;)
My thoughts have to seem erratic and at this point so is my heartbeat, how does one person just come along and show me things I never thought I'd see. You make me laugh when I'm alone and just melt when were together, you're too good to be true, so let this lie last forever. But please lie to me never....
Honestly I don't see a need, I enjoy you and you enjoy me, you make me feel like that woman that everybody else sees.... but me. But when I'm with you I'm sure, its honest, its pure, its like a Sunday plate from Big Mommas, worth going to the west end for, and I'm coming from the land of far far away, and I don't care what the cost of gas is, I'll make it on E today... for you that is.
You love my sense of humor and I love to see you smile, I wanted to reject you at first thought, but I think I'll keep you around for a while... if you want to be kept... I hope you ain't wearing hard bottoms, you just might get swept...
See how easy it is for me to just be? No matter how silly I am, you know the seriousness in me.
You're the construction worker assigned to this job now, lets call your job "Broken Heart Demolition". You have to break the walls down, but don't ram it with that ball, pull the bricks down one by one, each one you take down, learn that lesson so you will not do what the others have done.
Life is about making a difference and this journey should not be the exception, if I grab a hold to you today, would we walk in the same direction? My first step is to believe, until you give me a reason not to, I feel like I'm dreaming right now, don't let me open my eyes find that "That" person is not you.... #Random
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