2010 I have to say that I have brought it in with a whole new outlook on my life... It's weird because towards the end of 2009 I found myself just letting go of a lot and a lot of people... I knew that at some point I needed to put Me first. I have always had a tendency to care a little too much or give way too many chances and I was tired of it. At some point I found the strength to believe and love me, I told myself that there was no point in stressing over the things that I couldn't change, there was no point in continuosly changing for someone that couldnt love me for me. All I needed to do was pray for the strength to move on... It was hard, I hurt like never before but it made me look at myself a lot deeper.
Today I take each day as it is handed to me, I listen to the people around me, and I chose my battles wisely. I am a woman that has been through hell and high water, but somehow I still found a way and reason to want to love and care about people... even the ones who have hurt me. All the pain, I thought i'd never love anyone, I guess somewhere through it all there was a little girl hid inside of me during all that, that held on to the good in me. It has taken me years but I think i'm getting to know her. I feel good inside and it shows on the outside. I glow and I feel it. Today I am ready to share that.... Some days I find myself filled with so much joy I can't sit still lol. I carry a beautiful feeling in me and today I believe that I deserve it :) I deserve This.... and I deserve Her :)
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